music’s my only friend.

for me, music is my only friend. Even on the shittiest day, music is there for me. Especially This Century and The Maine, they have helped me so much that a thank you is not enough. They had helped in so many ways, they helped through breakdown, when i am angry with the people around me or myself, they helped me when i feel like everyone is against me, they helped me when my friend, my best friend thinks that everything is a competition on who got the best score. They helped me, when i got torn apart, when bullies sees me as the weak one, they helped me in so many different problems i had in my life, and i wanted to say much more than thank you to them. They are truly the only people who i considered as family, i know it doesn’t really make sense, but they are my family. They are the one who make me feel like i’m safe from all the shit and bad thing out there, they are the one who make me feel warm inside.

They are there when i feel like killing myself, and they are there when i am finding myself. This may not touched your heart, but i am writing from deep down of my heart. I always try to remember and said to myself that, “Hey, one more day means that it’s another step on getting out of here” and sometimes it helps, and sometimes it don’t.

Joel, he is the lead singer of This Century and he truly helped me to believe in God, but i guess shitty things had put me in a situation that i don’t believe in Him anymore. But i am still trying so hard though, i am trying so hard to put the past behind me.

Sean, is probably one of the people who helps me in so many ways i can’t even imagine possible. He wrote amazing lyrics, that portrays my life, so thank you.

Alex, he is probably the cutest out of all of them, and he is the only one who can make me smile every time his picture shows up in my dashboard.

Ryan, make me feel like i can rely on him, he can make you feel safe in so many ways, and i wish i had him as a brother.

John, he is truly one of the original person in this world. His poem and lyrics, can just break me down, and lit me up at the same time.

Garrett, is the cutest and the most nicest person in the entire world, when he smiles the whole word literally stop. Or at least, my world is. 

Jared, God how i wish i had him as a brother.

Kennedy, he makes me alive for some reason that i can’t even understand.

Pat, he makes me feel so safe, he makes me so happy, he makes me laugh that my stomach churns, and i love him a little too much.

I love them so much.

So thank you for being there, it really means a lot to me.

Thank you, music. I don’t know what i do without you.

Bye